26 March 2010

Bipolar Colorado

As disappointed to see that it was snowing like the sky was falling when I got out of the gym today, I was also so amazed by the beauty of a spring snow storm. Humongous, sloppy snow flakes circled around me as I walked to my car and I'm pretty sure I looked like a snowman by the time I got there. Colorado really is splendid in the spring time, one day it's practically summer out and people wear shorts and flip-flops then the next day we have a blizzard and you need a winter coat again. When I heard it was gonna snow I thought I would be swearing and having a hissy fit, but it has turned into a good reason to be productive and get homework done.
I would just like to take a moment to make a note to the citizens of Durango and especially the driver of a large gray van: just because it's snowing doesn't necessitate you riding your brakes because in fact, when it's 40 degrees and snowing, the roads are just wet, not icy. Thank you for your cooperation.

The most prevalent thing in my life lately has been stress. What's new. But I actually had a really great week as far as school goes, I was not a procrastinator for once. Unfortunately, I spent all my time on schoolwork and not on things that I love, like my new hobby of cooking. Living on my own has really improved my culinary skills and my imagination for that matter. I'm subscribed to some cooking blogs and the options for food really are endless, I love it! When I say cooking, I mean real cooking like things for meals, not baking cookies and such...which I do a little of, tonight I am actually making some Ferrero Rocher cupcakes for a friend's birthday...but I find great satisfaction in preparing new and wonderful dishes for dinner. I think that's why I like cooking so much, it's satisfying to know that you have made something beautiful and delicious (when they turn out that way, that is) for others and yourself to enjoy. Plus, it's fun to try out new things and see what goes well together.

Homework calls. More to come later.

18 March 2010


1.) Why does a girl wearing a dress immediately elicit stares from every guy she passes?
Maybe a funny question, but really? Today, I didn't have time for makeup or to do anything with my hair, so I looked like a total mess, except that I was wearing a dress and nice shoes and let me tell ya, I got SO many smiles and checked out by SO many guys around campus today. What's the deal? Man, if all it takes is a dress, then I'm gonna forget the rest of it and just live in dresses from now on!
2.) So on the topic of wearing a dress today, an acquaintance of mine told me today that I've been dressing really nicely lately and was wondering if there was a reason for the change... Thanks, I know that I have had some not so fashionable days, but you didn't really need to point that out... But there actually is some validity behind the question. This semester has been really hard for me academically and it's very easy for me to stress about school matters and think ahead of myself and get freaked out that I have too much to do and too little time. So in my moments of stress, I like to dress nicely and give a more "tidy" than normal appearance because if I'm stressed and freaking out and worried about everything going on, I want the last thing that I worry about to be if I'm looking attractive or not. It's super easy for me to be anxious and forget about looking good and then I just feel even worse cause in my haste and lack of sleep I've failed to make myself look like a presentable member of society. I find it really helps my confidence in school (and in general!) and helps me to alleviate some preoccupations if I look good and know that I took the extra 10 mins to make sure that I do. And really that's all it takes, 10 minutes! Changing from sweats to a dress is so easy to do and it's an amazing confidence booster, reason number 4 to wear dresses.

14 March 2010

20 five

I wrote this last year as a facebook thing that a lot of people did, but I found it very lovely and fitting when I read it again today. It's amazing how a year can change so many things and at the same time everything about a person can stay the same.

1) I'm an animal lover, not to an extreme, but they steal my heart more than anything else.
2) Coffee has become an addiction. Not for the caffeine, but for the wonderful taste.
3) I am fascinated by random things such as firetrucks and decorative postage stamps.
4) Winter is my favorite time of year. I love snow.
5) Snail mail makes my day better, getting a handwritten letter from someone always puts a smile on my face.
6) I don't know where I would be without my girlfriends, they make all the difference.
7) I'm excited to have my own family when I'm older, being a mom is my dream job.
8) I want to go into outer-space.
9) I'm coldblooded. Literally, I'm always freezing.
10) I have a love for languages and cultures.
11) I will travel the entire world in my life.
12) I'm a cuddler.
13) The Lord is my Shepard.
14) Writing is the most therapeutic thing for me, any time something is bothering me I write about it.
15) I like being barefoot.
16) The mountains are my home, I belong in a place with mountains.
17) I love adventurous, outdoorsy things. They make me feel rugged.
18) I'm addicted to working out, otherwise I can't sleep.
19) I'm glad to be friends with my family and family to my friends.
20) I have an organized mind, everything has its own folder in a department inside of a topic, but my life is unorganized and messy.
21) I know what I want in my life, but I don't know how I will get there and that's beautiful to me.
22) I love the sound of silence.
23) I'm kinda an anime nerd...but you're not suppose to know that.
24) I want to go on a quest, just because it sounds so badass.
25) North Side Middle Gate, that's where I'll be.

The only correction to be made is #4. Winter is no longer my favorite. haha I still love snow and I do enjoy winter, but I've been missing the sun and warm weather a lot this year.
Well now you know a bit more about me.

there cannot be a Greater beauty

Sometimes I feel like my life isn't busy enough or interesting enough to actually blog. Or maybe I'm not a good enough story teller. Fact. I guess there's always the possibility that my life is too scandalous to be posting all over the internet. Bingo! Found a winner. Not.
Anyway, I was just thinking about the people in my life and how special they are and how special they make me feel. I like people who make me feel special. Strange, right? But really, I'm surrounded by some amazing people who make me laugh til I snort, who give up time and energy for me and who hug me like they will never let go. I love that. I think I love hugs more than I like firetrucks...or puppies...and I really love puppies. There's just something about a good strong hug that makes my heart swell and I feel like a cartoon with hearts popping up all around my head, no matter who it is. But back to the point, I don't know how I became so lucky to have the people in my life that I do, who trust me with their amazing stories, let me into their lives, encourage me when I'm having a bad day and of course, give wonderful hugs.
They all have such big, beautiful hearts.

12 March 2010

Long time gone.

Well it seems fairly obvious that blogging has not been on my list of things to do, but my very good friend Hannah has taken up the past time (http://talesfromatimeout.blogspot.com/) and I feel inspired to start again. At least for a little while.

Lately I've been very preoccupied with the future and that bothers me. I look at so many people around me and they have career goals and already know what they want for their lives 5...10...50 years from now. I hardly know what I want to eat for supper tonight! I really admire those who know what job they want and know how they are gonna make it work, that takes a lot of time and effort. I'm also extremely jealous sometimes when I have friends who are so determined to get where they want, ambition is so...sexy or something.
It just seems as though all of them know what their purpose is already and here I am without any idea who I am or what I will be come. But isn't there beauty in that too? As jealous as I can become or as much as I admire others, I'm so happy with where I am in my life. I don't need to know where I'm going to know that wherever I end up it will be perfect. What's that quote, "It's not the destination, but the journey that matters", something along those lines. Sure I have an idea of a few things I want to do or accomplish with my life like traveling the world, learning languages and having a family, so I don't really feel like I need much else. Maybe my lack of ambition is disappointing to some, but who cares about them anyway?
I don't think I would rather be anyone else than a confused little girl or be anywhere else than utterly and completely lost.